Schizophrenia Disorder

Everyone in this world has his own quirks and eccentricities.

Or maybe it's just a way to make us feel better that we are not mentally ill.

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Here's a lil secret about me,

Whenever I'm involved w a detailed task that requires high concentration and delicacy, up to one point of cognition, another state of my mind will unconsciously emerge, and I'll begin talking to myself. Even right now at this very moment, I'm talking to myself as I'm typing.

To which why I don't do group study, or even go to lecture halls because at that given circumstances I can't possibly ' be myself '. However, most of the time people aren't able to discern it because I got it under control whenever I sense the presence of others around.

Or whenever I stare into space, my own imaginations, my memories relive before my eyes. Walking along the street, I don't see the kid munching on his chocolate, nor do I see the old lady fumbling w her grocery bags. I see myself throwing a basketball into the hoop when I was 5. Sometimes, I see myself working in an Accounting firm, other times I see myself rehearsing all the things I should have said to her back then.

And people freak out because at times I'd give out a laughter out of nowhere when I think about the stupid things I did together w my friends.

I can actually have a proper discussion w this other side of myself. As crazy as it sounds, I kinda like it. Because when I reach that level of concentration, I can literally remember everything I get in touch w forEVER.

Moreover, it gives me a clearer picture of my past mistakes, what I should have said, what I should have done. These flashback becomes the echo of my own voice to stop me from repeating my mistake, and at the same time, reminds me of the blessings in my life, what matters most and what I care about.

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Anyway, I came across w this mental illness. Doesn't it describe all God believers?

Schizophrenia Disorder

This disorder involves a psychotic phase (with delusions, hallucination, bizarre/ disorganized speech and behavior)

Delusion - Have false beliefs or religious persecution, even after other people prove that the beliefs are not true or logical.

Hallucinations - most commonly involve hearing voices others don't. Other less common experiences can include seeing, feeling tasting or smelling that aren't real.

Thought disorder - where speech may be difficult to follow w logical connection.

People who are diagnosed w Schizophrenia has blurred line between the real and the imaginary, and often they are unaware that they are ill. This can be very distressing for the people around them.

Once again, I'm writing this in no offense to anyone. If you are a God person, I'm not insinuating that you are a psycho. I'm just saying that... you could be =]

It says Schizophrenia can be treated. Seek help now!

no hard feelings, cheers*