Me Dearly Beloved Exes

It struck a chord in my heart when I saw J's wedding photos.



'I'm so happy!' She rejoiced, for she knew how rare a find he was, 'Life has never been so blissful now'.



'I'm really happy for you' I said, 'I miss you already, come back and visit sometimes'. It did hurt a lil bit inside. Having been married to a American Korean, it's only natural that J would be based in USA permanently.



'I will. Update me on your love life too! I'd like to know!'



I tried to be as subtle as possible throughout the whole conversation. Not that I still have any feelings for her, but my head was involuntarily reliving all the memories that we have had together.



I felt as though it were only yesterday, where I flipped over to her side, closely listening to the soft purr of her breathing as she sleeps.

Exes.



They always have a special place in your heart. They are not romantically suited for you, but they had moved you in ways others had not. I remember there was once Jess called and deliberately woke me in the middle of the night. ‘Babe,’ she murmured, half sobbingly, ‘Please tell me you are home now, I had a dream that you were in an accident’. I was enthralled so completely by her at the moment. I was the luckiest guy in the world then.

Admittedly, we are more prone to dwell in the past. It’s harder to fend off your sentimentalities and pretend that it never existed.


It’s always bittersweet whenever we take a stroll down memory lane – sometimes happy, sometimes sad, never perfect. And whether we like it or not, their presence has impacted our lives, our souls, and perhaps to a certain level, it still forms a secret longing in our hearts.





All the keepsake that were given by my exes are still in my possession today. From time to time, I would trace back these mementos in order to find relevance to their love and affection. Because without them, I would not faintly resemble the man I am today.





Regrettably, all my exes are currently nowhere I can cast my sight upon.







And I have long searched in vain for someone who can replace them, someone who can make me fall wholeheartedly for like they did.








Inspired by Fei - http://www.somekindofepic.blogspot.com/2012/05/parentals.html