It Made My Day =]

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Tattoo

I always want to get a tattoo.

you know why?

coz it makes hell loads of difference!

The Right One

In our lives

we either dash about in pursuit of the right person,

or we walk at our own pace until the right one comes along.

But,

How do we really know if they are the right ones?

How can we safely tell ourselves that they are absolutely compatible w us?

It is when

You'd spend extra time on your grooming

but at times you just don't give a shit about your looks when it comes to that person

it is when

You'd behave in a impeccable demeanor,

but at times you'd burp unconstrainedly in front of that person because you are so comfortable w them

It is when

You'd constantly work hard to improve yourself to match up w that person

but at times you just wanna be lazy, sit back and lean against them

It is when

that person brings out the best and the worst in you simultaneously

You'd know you end up w the right one =]

Daily Random

Someone has to teach me how to 'have faith'.

It's like asking me to defy everything I see w my own eyes and believe in my own imagination.

Things I Do To Blend In The UK

I wish this post would serve the purpose of inspirations to the all of you.

I believe, when one's deprived of something since young, that something would work as his/her measure of success in the future. As for me, that something, would be social acceptance. Regarding the things I've done to blend in the UK, all of which, really require me to step out of my comfort zone, to be someone else rather than myself.

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I touched down in the UK w enormous positive energy and enthusiasm. I literally smiled at everyone as I walked out from the airport custody, and everyone happily reciprocated w a smile. I was so excited, I could feel my blood flowing through my veins, delirious over this kind of friendly phenomenon that you don't always get in Malaysia.

I thought my life here would turn out as awesome as it was back in Malaysia. But high hopes can only lead to greater fall.

Long story cut short.

No one whom I went out w to freshers' parties ever call me out again.

I failed to register for my O2 online package because I wasn't able to understand British accent over the phone.

I was only as good as a 'party photographer' to the locals.

I even had to point at the menu to tell the fella that I want a BIG MAC.

The only friends that I have over the period, was a bunch of Spanish people who have only a fairly good command of English. And the fact that they are even hanging out w me was because I speak better English than them.

In spite of the effort I put forth to adapt , nothing has really improved a tad bit. I've spent countless of hours to brush up my English, I've memorised countless of jokes on google, I've offered countless of my precious cigarette to every smoking beings I have encountered, but no amount of which has gotten me to anywhere.

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And at one point, I lost all my confidence. I was pretty devastated. I started to avoid everyone, as much as I could. I basically lived off the grid, If I hadn't have to eat/pee, I would never leave my room. My life, at that point, was PATHETIC.

Until one day as I was stewing in my own juice, a good Spanish friend of mine, Alvaro came into my room, and started talking to me.

Alvaro: 'Yang, do you want to go to the gym?'

YgGuo: ' Nah, at this time the gym is filled w people.'

Alvaro: 'Ok. We are going out tonight. Do you want to join us?'

YgGuo: 'Nah, I'm doing something, I'm staying in.'

He frowned.

Alvaro: 'What are you doing?'

He got me. I was doing absolutely nothing at all.

YgGuo: 'I was watching a movie. Haha!'

Alvaro: 'Cmon Yang. We haven't hung out for a long time. It's going to be fun!'

YgGuo: ' Nah... I'll pass... Sorry, maybe next time.'

Alvaro: 'You know what, I really don't know what happened to you. The first time I met you, you had fucking beers in your room.'

And he just stormed out.

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I was stunned. His words hit me so hard, that my senses came back all to me. I realised, however it may have turned out to be, however the people out there looked upon me, I know clearly myself that I am never the kind of guy who: doesn't wanna meet new people, sit at home on the weekend to watch a movie, and most importantly, the kind of guy who gives up.

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If a person can die and reborn figuratively, then yea, I died and reborn-ed. AHAH

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On that night itself, I've made a vow. On that night itself, I mapped out every strategy in order to achieve what I set out to be. And the next day, after 10 cigs, I ventured out to put all of them into practise:

Every time when I can't understand them, instead of panicking, I'd laugh and say: 'I don't understand you and your stupid British accent!'

Every time when I stammer, instead of trying to disguise my lack of English proficiency, I'd pause and say: 'Wait, let me structure my sentence properly.'

Every time they play w my hair, instead of being like a docile dog, I'd grab their hands and say: 'Hey! Hands off! Or it's 5 quid for ya!'

And I even took up a job in a bar, so I would have more interaction w the locals.

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Today, I can safely tell you that, I've built a stronger bond w my neighbours

I'm no longer intimidated by the locals no more, I love them more than ever.

And I'm actually someone they can have lots of fun w.

And in exactly 9 more days, I will be going to Amsterdam w them.

All of which, really require me to step out of my comfort zone.

Along the throes, there are times where I've been pushed to my limit, and I just want to give up. At times, I feel like I am losing all my senses, and my recklessness seems to be getting the best of me. At times, I make excuses to myself so I would feel less 'guilty' to give up.

But I always keep one thing in mind.

I always remember what I want in my life, and remind myself how my life would be better off if I've achieved it.

And nothing can be derived from dwelling in your own comfort zone. Happiness does not fall within it, it falls somewhere near it.

You just gotta step out and pursue it.

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Happy Valentines Day!

Speaking of Valentines Day.

If I have a girlfriend, I would still embark on doing those conventional lovey dovey shit a couple would do on that particular day. Maybe add some novelty values of my own to succeed the valentines plan.

Because your bull shit condemnations about Vday do not work for me.

True, you do not only love your partner on Valentines Day, you love them everyday. You've done a pretty good job expressing your love to your significant half everyday. You think that Vday is unambiguously just another commercial day to conning people into spending money.

So to you,

it's completely fine to chicken out on a Vday

because it is too much hassles

But I do believe, that

As commercial as it is, she still deserves the best and I would want my girlfriend to receive what the rest of the world is receiving.

And well, price will be relatively higher, but I'll make sure I save up enough money to burn a hole in my pocket so I could have a really good time w her.

You may still think it's stupid and unreasonable.

'We are not going out. Valentines Day is just like any other day to us.'

Well, be happy that your girlfriend is understanding enough to put up having to do absolutely nothing at all on such a big day, and be ashamed of yourself for your incompetency in granting her a good time.

The Broken Clock

There's a famous quote:

Even a stopped clock tells the right time twice.

I do not support this cliche, but it does serve as a great metaphor.

How so?

A broken clock steadfastly points at a single time of the day. Eventually, time will come around to where it points at. Rather than chasing the time around all day, it waits for the right time to come to them.

Maybe, the best way of pursuing happiness, is by not looking for it at all.

Happy Valentines Day peeps!

Does it ever occur to you that

that you could be in a number of different places if you made one decision differently? i mean, hell i could be at seven different colleges right now if i chose that one instead of the one i’m at now.

do you ever think about the people you could be with if you chose differently? because really, it’s all chance who you’re with right now. i could be with different people at any one of those seven colleges. or even different people if i was placed on a different floor, even a different building. it would be so easy to be somewhere else right now. with different people, doing different things, being a completely different person.

doesn’t it freak you out that one single choice alters the entire course of your life? EVERYTHING could be different because of something you did three, nine, fifteen years ago. every single decision you make, from what sandwich you eat at lunch, to when you go to bed, to where you decide to walk, to what toothpaste you use. they all change something about you. and not to mention everything you say. there’s a million possibilities of how you could respond to something. and i don’t know about you, but i always think about what would have happened if i had said something different. it would all be different right now. everything could be different right now.

absolutely everything.

I saw this post and I thought it was thought provoking so I wanna share it.

Beyond this fence, is everything you can never imagine.

Step out of your comfort zone and venture out already!

You'll never know what lies out there.

You dont wanna miss this lol (let it load)

If I had one superpower that I would want, that would be to... be Spiderman.
He can kiss upside down, and do many other things upside down. Period.

Even we don't understand ourselves

When you wish for one thing

Does it ever occur to you that perhaps,

you were unconsciously wishing for another?

Because I was thinking.

Instead of a surprise birthday party,

Maybe, all I ever wanted

is to have a bunch of people who care.

Daily Random

I came out w a joke today.

While eating at Seoul Kimchi, I popped that joke to Misha.

'Do you know why exes don't talk ar?'

'If you want to tell me just tell I'm not going to keep guessing.'

'Because right...' I put up that smirky face, and continued 'Exes are non living things la....HAHAHAHAHA!'

I literally laughed out loud. But I was the only one laughing at the table.

Misha gave me that look.

'How lame can you get?'

It's ok. Just because you have no sense of humuor doesn't mean others don't have it too.

So I called Rianne to prove my point.

'Oi.'

'Wassup.'

'Can I ask you a question?'

'Yea.'

'Why exes don't talk to each other?'

She freaked out. She thought I was going through some emotional beakdown.

'Erm... erm.. because... I don't know... It's weird I guess... It's completely normal...'

'No.'

'What?'

'You wanna know why?'

'Why?' confused*

'Because exes are non living things la...(axes) HAHAHAHAH!'

I laughed out loud at the table again.

She paused. Then a bit later she said,

'You damn lame la.'

=.=

I was a bit disappointed that 2 of my bestest friends did not laugh at my joke. But then I laughed again, because now I become the sohai who I used to make fun of when they make a joke and no one reciprocated. HAHAHAHAH!

First Poem Attempt

You are like a candle light, warm and delicate.

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Should I keep a safe distance

and seek refuge beneath the beam of light

as I watch you glimmer gracefully in the stillness of the night

Or should I conquer my inner fear

Pull you closer and hold you dear

as I watch my soul combust as you start to sear...

Not bad. At least it rhymes. LOL

SOHAI!

God has prepared a line of people in my life, to which every each of whom is equipped w a specific kind of sohainess. They specially exist for one prime purpose. Whenever he is bored, he will descend them into my life so he could watch 'How I Screw Yang Sik's Life'.

Because other than this reason, I seriously can't think of another sensible reason as to why it seems like I am the only one in the world who get shits like that.

I have had Cig Incident, Common Room Incident, ASDA Incident, Exam Experience. So what it is this time?

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Behold. The Warden Incident.

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And this is relatively bigger as compared to the previous events. Because this time, instead of suppressing my anger, I fucked that person up nicely.

As you guys know, I'm working in a bar now, and it requires me to apply for the National Insurance number. So after the gym session, I dropped by at the accommodation office to check my post box if I've received that overdue reply from the UK job centre.

And at the moment, there was an accommodation admin inserting the mails into the respective post boxes. Little did I know, that was the motherfucker who was about to start a drama w me.

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It came about like this.

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I went to my flat's designated post box. It was opened because that accommodation admin (let's call him 'sohai' from now onwards) was distributing the mails to respective post boxes. So I thought this sohai saved me the hassle of unlocking the post box. But I was wrong.

Because when I took the letters out of my post box, and as I rummaged through the letters for my NI application letter, all of sudden, sohai snatched them away from my hand and popped them back into the post box.

Stunned*

'Excuse me?!' I said.

Sohai: 'Yea, not until I have finished putting the rest in and you'll access to the post box.'

Now that is just fucking downright stupid right. Wouldn't I make your job easier?!

YgGuo: Why?

Sohai: I'm still doing this and I'm not done here.

YgGuo: So it will kill you if I took these letters from you izit?

Sohai: It's very rude of you to interrupt my work like that!

YgGuo: So it's not rude when you snatched the letter from me?!

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Sohai stammered. He then proceeded to resume his work and mumbled something which I didn't understand because of his fucking accent.

I stood there for awhile. In that split second, million thoughts flood into my mind. I think to myself, what do I do now? Should I give in to this son of a bitch and walk away? Should I just come back later? Should I just beg him and take it from him now?

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Beg him?! Are you FUCKING KIDDING ME?!

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So, I put on my game face and reached for my letters again. This time, before I can even look at the letters he took it away from me again.

'What the fuck izit now?!' Yes, I said fuck.

Sohai: I told you I'm half way....

YgGuo: Tell me why should I wait for you?!

Sohai: How would I know then this slot belongs to you?! Anyone could have just take...

Before he could finish his sentence I took out my keys, grabbed the letters inside the post box, slammed the cover and locked the post box right before his eyes.

Well said enough.

I didn't open back the post box for him.

As I walked away, that guy was blabbering at me behind. I couldn't be bothered, I've got what I wanted.

You say true or not? LOL

Whatever u give a woman, she will make it greater.

Give her sperm, she will give u a baby.

Give her a house, she will give u a home.

Give her groceries, she will give u a meal.

Give her a smile n she will give u her heart.

She multiplies and enlarges what she is given.

So if u give her crap...... be ready to receive a ton of shit......