Sunday, January 25

Are you emo?

‘Why your blog so EMO wan? Cannot write happy things izit?!’


‘People who read your EMO blog but don’t know you in person would think you are anti social.’



‘Hey… just read your EMO blog… are you ok? Call me if you need anything.’



‘I never thought you are the EMO type until I saw your EMO blog.’

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After getting all these responses from all my friends, I deeply, genuinely, intensely feel the need of talking a little bit of myself.

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I have a bit of emotional deviant in myself. But emo has 2 types.

The bad emo...
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and tada! The healthy one!
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I have written many love descriptions and emo posts. Yes, they reflect my mood of the moment. But most of them are just what I think I would feel if I were to encounter those circumstances. And because I don’t blog when I’m not emo, it’s always emo and emo posts that you’ll come across. I don’t blog about my daily life. I have enough stalkers around me to let others know what I have been up to.


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Besides, having so many troubled friends coming up to me, I really put myself in their shoes to feel just like them, so as to sort things out for them. Or sometimes, I dream, I sit and make up scenarios, unconsciously I sink into my own imagination and get all caught up with emotions.


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I let these emotions get deeply into myself, many times over again by looking at things rather pessimistically. Because in the end, they will work as a reminder not to take things for granted when things are looking up;


and when vice versa, I could avoid these negative emotions and still have a good grip on my senses when facing similar situations.


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cheers*

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Thursday, January 22

You are a dumbass u know that?! LOL

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We are such dumbass at times.


Thou we clearly know that
There's no way they could ever like us back,
or at least not the same kind of love as we have given,
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Why is that
The other part of our hearts
Constantly decieve us that it'll happen
That we will be happily together
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And why is that
The other part of our hearts
Seems to be getting the best of us
All the time...
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Friday, January 16

Happy New Year!

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Year 2008 has been quite eventful to me, to say the least. I took a stroll down memory lane, squinting through the days that passed me by. I’m looking back. I sifted through my photo albums, my birthday gifts, digging up all the reminiscences of the past to help me flashback to the finest moments in my life.
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Sometimes, I really wish to have them all videotaped so I could watch them all over again, relive those moments where we shared jokes and just for a second or two, we were all laughing together and all our problems seemed to have vanished.
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But then I realized, some of the people who used to play a vital role in my life, where we always knew exactly what was going on with each other, could just walk out of your life like they were never a big part of it.
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Life, people come in and out, people you know become people you knew. Everyone has changed one way or another. Now we barely even speak.
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One reason I figured is that, all of us were going on our separate ways, and throughout the time when we were distant, we start our new life, experience different things. From there and then, we change.
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I think what we have been through made us what we are. It circuitously influences our character so we can see the world in a different aspect. People who have been betrayed question the credibility of trustworthiness. People who are broken put up walls against others. We may not like the way they have become, but we should still accept them as who they are. We do not have the right to judge them because we do not know what they have been through.
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As we grow older, we perpetuate the experience we have had as our memory and we learn from every circumstance we have faced. From there, we get to put back pieces of ourselves differently and build a new character. Even if you are not the same, your heart might be a little obscured, sometimes the cracks and the empty spaces create a whole new quality.
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After all, changes itself is a fundamental feature of life.
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I looked at myself in the mirror. I seriously get better looking every year. However, there are many things I would like change, not in a facial sense but my inner self. There are many ugly characteristics of mine which you can't see just by looking at me.
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I think I’m too judgmental. I tend to presume a person’s personality when I don’t really know him/her yet and even start to despise them. Besides, I really need to be more patient with time and with people. I just suck at waiting.
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Hopefully by the end of the year, I can be a more decidedly mellow person.
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When you look at the mirror, do u recognized that face as your own? Or do you see a new person?
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Your past may have made you a different person, and if looking back hurts and looking forward scares you, then look beside you. I'll always be there for you
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Sunday, January 11

There are things in life which are meant to coexist

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Love creates jealousy and hatred.

Victory derives from numerous defeats.

Happiness needs sadness.

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These elements exist contemporaneously in our lives. They are meant to coexist, and whether you like it anot, you must experience and accept the contrast. Because if the contrast is lost, you lose appreciation; and when you lose appreciation, you lose the value of everything.

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